Feel

i reach out
nothing
nothing there to hold on to
so i can i stay lifted
you whisper in my ear
'i got u'
'how?" i ask, your reply
'i'm gifted'
'if i cant hold your hand will i fall?'
in my ear you whisper
'have u fallen?
love i got u and i'm here
dont worry'
you tell me and i keep stepping
'love is blind and
love is tangible, even if u dont feel it now
you will in the future'
you speak in my ear
'baby, love is on the way
just wait
can u feel it?'
as my heart begins to race
and and body becomes warm
my eyes close
and i feel your arms
around me
'see' you say,
'you can feel it now'

distance

Just as i thought i would
i have distanced myself
from love and its grip
am i happy
no
do i feel any better
once again
no
so wat can i do
besides run back to it

Fruit

I heard someone say
if u dont like the fruit
then walk on by the tree
does that mean i dwell
in you
you in me?
No reason to keep steppin
your fruit feeds my soul
Why do u do this to me?
Was it meant to be this way?
Too many questions?
Maybe so but
I need answers

-trapped goddess

good days are cool
this is one here
and im chillin
and i have a husband that i wish
to tell many about
but im keepin my thoughts
to my damn self lol

a quick freestyle

shawti be clear
just for a second thought u saw me
now i'm gone
now yo ass hatin
cuz u cant freestyle all alone
seekin help from that nelly, t-pain and twista
layzie bone
knowin u aint made up no song
u may as well go home
pick up yo face
dont be jumpin up in my face
i'll leave u missin and remains of you
niggas wont have a trace

*untitled and undone*

i sit here
so much is on my mind that
i wish i never even had a thought in the first place
as i found love in the right place
i'm too scared to move and let it keep on going
and its affecting my actions now
so what am i to do
what am i to say
where am i to go in this relationship
oh and lets not get started on the whole
'bout to experience life' thing
oh my oh me now u kno i'm shakin
like a newborn baby on a cold night in their crib alone
shakin like a muthafuckin ho in the club
but i's scared
scared of relationships
scared to leave home, leave the state
have a whole new lifestyle...
all of this is coming up
and what am i going to do?
what the hell can i do
to prepare myself for this
i need someone behind me, supporting me more
than those who are already supporting
and i dont kno who to call on
damn
i started these thoughts again
now i wish i never had a reason to have a thought

anther freestyle by me and Tim

Mia-arms empty yet i'm steadily reachin out for my luva'z touch
Tim-cause you want it so much
but everytime you reach for a touch you gets none, cause he gon
Mia-and when i think i see his face its twisted images in my mind,
yet i still search to find cuz i cant let go of his behind
damn i wish i could feel him...just feel his lips against mine
Tim-You think about it all tha time,
he's tha reason y u rhyme,
but from him he has no time
Mia-its like im just anotha dime
on which he seems to waste his time
but i still long for the feelin of his lips against mine
fingertips against mine
his hips against mine
Tim-as they begin to transend to a higher plain of existance,
no longer reminiscin,
yet not beyond tha occasional hump and kissin
Mia-and kissin and kissin
before we finally stop to listen
to our hearts beat as one rhythm
as my heart longs to be with him
but i may as well forget him
Tim-even if he's lips were gifted
he's emotions still shifted
and u were in it for love
when all he found was lust
Mia-it seem like sex is a must
a nut needed to bust
but he wasnt gettin it from me cuz even tho theres love where's trust
i want to feel the fire from within when our lips meet again
but im so caught up n shit right now i wouldnt know where to begin
so high off the heat that i would ask it all of a friend
would u let me feel ur lips so my love for him would end
Tim-And then ours would begin,
even tho it feels right, its as if its a sin
But thenI tell you yes, and we're gon like tha wind,
just Mia and Tim

A freestyle by me and Tim

yeah i know it got kinda wild but it was fun and we were laughin tha whole time so....u kno how it goes

Mia-life and love have no need to collide when there is something to hide
Tim-But i bide my time, and sit inside and write
Mia-jealousy is the barrier between love and hate
love and hate correspond with destiny and fate
Tim-No longer can i wait for fate to supply my love life, on a platter or plate
Mia-no longer i await for destiny to persuade some nigga to ask for a date
Tim-They try to beat around the bush when they should just come at you straight
Mia-and when u think they'll be on time they always wind up late...
and u know just for a split second ur body's filled with hate
i would hate to hate to love u
but i wouldn't hate to love to hug u
Tim-And i wouldn't hate to love you
cause we seem so cool,everything about us is soo true
cause it's only just me and youBut tha dudes at ur school, have another way if thinkin
as if they Ray J and get to make wishes
but i'm tha one you kissin, sweat from tha kisses
And you don't complain you say i have candy coated lipses
Mia-yeah and them candy coated lipses,
can get my mind to driftin,
and them other niggas roll around im thinkin to hell with 'em
cuz my secret boo be tempten
and my fingers will be grippin
on his shoulders as we kissin
cuz he got candy coated lipses
Tim-Damn i'm so gifted, i show you pure bliss,
you know u've found love, it's there everytime we kiss
And you say ur so glad that you finally know,
You understand that song sung by Keyshia Cole
Mia-i cant believe i thought that shit was old,
but when i found u i saw the truth she told
so now i have ur lips to kiss and ur hand to hold
Tim-No longer feeling shy in public we are bold,
our deepest secerets unfold, yes yes yes i know,
that we are on a roll on a road, that leads to pleasure,
with hand cuffs, whips and chains, and leather
Mia-outside in nothin in cold weather
but we act like we'on know better
fear dissipates from the mind as we learn each other physically,
Tim-and mentally,no need to be spoken i know she feeling me,and seein me,
stare deep into her soul
through her window, her beautiful eyes,
as we both realize, we're almost out of time
Mia-when i first saw this dude somethin told me to take heed
as far as i can see he's just the friend i need
and he is all that he can bethe sweetest thing that i have seen
and i know i'm but a teen but i bet he could make me scream
Tim-But since i'm all that i can be,that means i'm from tha army,
but i'd rather take her pleasure than pain,
stand outside together and make love in tha rain.
It's complex, not simple and plain.
but anything she do to me i'm willin to do tha same
Mia-well i'm willin to scream ur name if u say u'll do tha same
and i'm willin to let go of the game if u wanna do tha same thang
Tim-I know you gots u an agenda and ur runnin out of time,
but if you up for tha task we can do a 69?
Mia-well i know u got them other gurlz but look into my eyes,
u know u cant deny it why dont u try and find the prize
u think u know my every inch u know what makes me hot....w
ell gon get on that journey and try to find my sweetest spot
Tim-Cause you like a box of Lucky Charms you magically delicious,
and unlike these bitches, i smell no fishes,
cause i couldn't come out my style and call you out your name,
unless i'm cakin, cause ur faeva my dame
Mia-cuz theres no betta feelin than two prizes, u and seein tha sun risin
Tim-We broadend both our horizens,we're honest with no lyin,
i damn near started cryin, but hey thas just me.
Cause when we wake up i'll ask you to be my wifey. END

thoughts blown away blocked by all negative thoughts as all the noise around me halts. i look to see whats going on wondering if it were all my fault. if i'm right i wouldnt be surprised to know i was the only with ability to use my mind, thoughts...but no words. i am unable to speak and there is no telling what i have to do to make myself heard. if it is by sight, touch, smell, or taste i have to make myself 'heard', but my voice isn't avaiable to speak from...what am i to do now? all eyes are on me, all eyes are glazed over, all eyes are vacant, and all eyes have no true meaning...please i need to get away is the thought running through my head. i need to run away from here cuz all that is is dead. how do i start, i turn and try to run but there is no ground to walk on, just air...so how am i standing, how am i lifted from the midst of the mist stat my feet are hovering in? i begin to walk away...dont look back, i think to myself...so what do i do, damn right...i look back. they follow me slowly, eyes still locked on me...i continue to make my way out of this lifeless nightmare that is

the pitiful cries of youth, young, and unborn linger in the space between life and fate. i cry along with them knowing i'm caught in the mix and the feeling wont dissipate. i've tried to escape, make all end, but i find myself asking where, when, how did i begin? so being lost i look out at the invisible eyes and hear echoed cries of those who may as well say they've lost their lives to their own murderous thoughts. they are just back to haunt themselves in their still being. still alive still seeing what was meant for the blinded, hearing whats for the mute, and feeling the intangible. all of which makes cries louder and its an ongoing torture for my ears, eyes, mind....



to be continued

In the Dark pt. 2
these in the dark poems are just thought of every now and then as i daydream bout my baby, or just daydream in general. i hope u like them

So now its hot
old flings are over
now i have someone new
sweet sweet and merciful
make you scream in the dark
He holds them lips that drive me crazy
the fingers that have that touch
then the eyes just pull you in
in the dark
my mind goes out ther as we get closer
and i find words hard to come by
yet they're easy to run by
in the dark
of course during the day i tend
to try to stay away
i bite my lip and twirl my pen
as my mind races again
once more replaying what we did
in the dark

In the Dark pt. 1

when the sun is shining
lights on
i'm doing what i do
i stare at you across the room
my eyes shift to thewindow when i see you look my way
when the sun is shining
i speak, wave, and keep moving
enjoy a lunch with friends
i pretend
i pretend...i hide it...its unseen
i keep my distance and i look up to see
you...smiling
damn
that damn smile
i'm ready for the sun to set
when the moon is overhead
the lights are off
i'm doing what i do
you cradle me in your arms
you tell me all of you fears
every secret your heart holds
when the moon is overhead
in the dark
you enjoy every part of me
no friends, just you and i
nothing to hide...just passion on top of passion
on top of passion
but when the sun comes upwe slip away from each other
we both have another
so we cant be seen alone
together
in the dark we keep our secrets
in the dark you belong to me
and i to you


-Mia