*untitled and undone*

i sit here
so much is on my mind that
i wish i never even had a thought in the first place
as i found love in the right place
i'm too scared to move and let it keep on going
and its affecting my actions now
so what am i to do
what am i to say
where am i to go in this relationship
oh and lets not get started on the whole
'bout to experience life' thing
oh my oh me now u kno i'm shakin
like a newborn baby on a cold night in their crib alone
shakin like a muthafuckin ho in the club
but i's scared
scared of relationships
scared to leave home, leave the state
have a whole new lifestyle...
all of this is coming up
and what am i going to do?
what the hell can i do
to prepare myself for this
i need someone behind me, supporting me more
than those who are already supporting
and i dont kno who to call on
damn
i started these thoughts again
now i wish i never had a reason to have a thought